...........was suposto be my title for this entry but owell, ill figure this thing out. Well, My brother Clint has inspired me to write on this thig again, I feel kind of vain writting about myself as if someone really cares about all the crap that spews out of my head....not that I think that of anyone else that does this sort of thing, just a demonstration of my low self esteme I guess. Sometimes I wonder if low self estemee really stems from a deep root of judgementality,,,but it could be just me overthinking everything as usual.
Well, I have 10 months without a drop of alchohol in my blood. I had to quit to save my life, a good hint to that was not only my childrens grades slipping but the dirt angels I was making in my driveway one night amoungst countless other not so apealing things I dont care to embarasss myself with ...so here I am....a "dry Drunk" as they call me. IE: one who is not drinking but is not in the AA program. I do Have Jesus or a "higher Power" though, and He Helps me more than words can describe. No-one can really know what I mean unless they know him personally and that is for sure, God is a force to be experienced ... I still say "bad" words but I do not think that my language is hurting me in Gods sight any more that my pride ......amongst many other things I dont care to name them all......I dont have "religon" I have a path that God is taking me on . Well , I have much to write, but not tonight. Im tired, ill get into the swing of this blogging thing I supose. I think it may be a healthy action for my well-being.
